Moving Away from the Technical into the Eccentric

I've been letting my daily frustrations rule many of my blog posts when I have a wealth of other topics I wish to touch upon and ponder over.

I've been out of touch with a side of me that I don't share with a lot of people.  Sharing some experiences has led people I've confided in question my state of mind and pretty much slammed the door on actually talking about it.

Spirituality.  How does that define a person?  I don't fall into any category that has some huge equation or knowledge base... or better said, the knowledge base may exist, but I simply haven't stuck myself into a single one.

What do I mean?

I know nothing about astrology other than the fact I'm a Virgo.  I know nothing about numerology except that dates seem to be something significant in my life.  I was raised Catholic.  I've never been confirmed.  To beat all that, I have a degree in Anthropology.  I believe in magic.  I believe in the unexplained.  I think dreams reveal much.  My dreams sometimes make me not want to sleep.  Other times I can go in and out of the same dream.  I have that inner sense of self that says:  Do or Do not that seems to never be wrong.. even when I choose to ignore it.  I believe there is more in this world than meets the eye.

Summed up I've had some strange things happen over the years that have been too powerful to ignore.

I've dreamed so powerfully I've shocked my husband, who I'm not sure believes in anything but what he can see and feel.

He woke me up one morning and I cried horribly because God told me something and I forgot what it was.  I wasn't fully awake, and he said I was so upset because I forgot.

Is it so terrible to admit I would know God's voice if I heard it again?  *sigh*   I don't think I'm crazy nor have I been one of those that can quote you any huge part of the Bible, so where did this come from?

I've had other moving things happen, but that one seems to spark the most questions and inner turmoil.  Connecting the dots of what I hold as spirituality is difficult ... and I wonder if other people dream like I do...

and doubt where it came from, but feel that it was real..